How has your 2025 been so far? I fear that to some, as early as January on, the year has already been very dramatic. It may have brought in tragically a sad beginning, thus they are hoping for a sweet and happy ending!

Remembering that I have lived only over 24 months past 5 decades. I should still be quite active and feeling elated. But it seems like when I start to recall the journey I have traveled so far, I feel the need to slow down now and meditate. Perhaps, start to plan another route.. take another turn or even uproot myself again.

You see, I may have told this story a million times here in my blog, but I will have to write it again.

I started doing summer jobs when I was only 12 years old. Yes! Every summer diligently until I got into college, a prestigious private college in Metro Manila.

Then I started my gig as a working student. I was fine and actually doing well both in managing my time between school and work. I could also maintain a so called-social life while in balancing work and studies. Then I moved on to the corporate world — and I was on my highs! Better than taking brownies, I would say 😉 !!!

It happened sooner than expected that I moved to another continent. I integrated myself and settled up my own hub in a country far from my own. Learned two new languages, built my own circle of spider’s web and started to conquer the world. Well, my own small world, at least!!!

Fast-forward, post Corona Pandemic, my highs staggered downwards. Three years later, I only want to have a slow, laid back life, preferably back in the Philippines. Yes, I am experiencing “pre-retirement” symptoms.

For now, since I still cannot afford to retire, I can dream… and you see…

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you’re fast asleep
In dreams, you will lose your heartache
Whatever you wish for, you keep…

And in some days, I wish I could just disappear quietly. Without bothering anybody, I hope to end everything in my life without leaving a trace or an inch of proof to my existence. Nevertheless, thinking, hoping and praying that I would come back, being reborn to a new world with better circumstances. Like I said, it’s a tragically sad beginning to a sweet and happy ending!

STOP! STOP! STOP!

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true

Okay! So I am really just being overly dramatic!

Actually, I believe I only want to take a break, a “sabbatical” as some would call it. But sabbatical costs money.. and money has to be earned first… juice colored!!!!