Akala ko meaning the band, pero tungkol sa piktyurs ito…kaya Freestyle na lang sana sa swimming, kaso di naman ako marunong lumangoy, kaya, kahit anong litrato nalang ang ipo post ko…hehehe.

Obvious ba? Mukhang nagiging favorite subject ko siya… ang Ulap. Kuha ito sa Italy, nung nilibot namin ng asawa ko ang Kastel Sardo sa Sardinia, Italy. May mga kasunod pa itong formation ng ulap na kinunan ko, pero baka maging boring para sa iba, kaya, sinamahan ko nalang ng litrato sa paligid na Old Castle. (Sorry po hindi White Castle Whiskey picture with me riding on a white horse. Siguro, pag kasing seksi na ako ni Roxanne Guinoo, hehehe).

It would have been my baby…

Lately I have been tired all the time. I wondered why this was happening to me again. I was like this before, that was 4 years ago, before I started with Fasting and Wandering and before I changed my eating style. But after the change, I have been fit all the time. Very energetic, hardly sick–not even my allergies managed to disrupt my days. In short, I still have allergies but seemly controlled. I have my spray from my Heilpraktikerin (Alternative Medicine doctor) that I still use regularly as therapeutic help in getting rid of my allergies. I digress.

As I was trying to figure out what was wrong with me, the thought that I could be pregnant was first in my list of “could it be?”.

If my memory serves me right, the first day of my last full period was January 17. In February, I had it for just a day. And this March my period was delayed for a week…which is actually not abnormal since it has happened already before. Not often but it has happened once or twice. It should have started already March 14, but I just had it March 21. March 24 at night, I had strong back and abdomen pains. After sometime, during early evening I had a very strange discharge. It was one whole clump of fat or so I thought. Luckily, it did not fall directly in the toilet but it came out just when I was about to go to relieve myself. It fell directly on my sanitary pad. Thing is, it was not bloody at all.

The following day, after work, I went to my OB-Gyne to show it and ask what it is. She unfortunately she has never seen anything like it before. She immediately sent me to the hospital and had me checked and the specimen too. At night, the head doctor finally decided that she they would have to perform Curettage to be sure that there is nothing left inside my uterus that shouldn’t be there.

Since it was just a minor operation, I could go home the same day. I was discharged from the hospital after 9 and a half hours admittance. But I was ordered to stay at home, no take a long bath, no heavy lifting and take everything slowly.

Anyway, from the time that I had the discharge, until now I still have no idea what it was that my body forced to emit from me. I have to wait till the end of the week or at least until my OB-Gyne would contact me for another appointment to talk about result of the tests on the specimen. The hospital crew did promise that it would happen at the latest by end of this week. Until then, I sit and wait…eagerly.

If indeed it was pregnancy, I live in peace knowing that I am capable of bearing a child. I just need to wait for the time when I would be blessed with one. I live in HOPE.

How would you describe your life in eight (8) words?

Would it be like…

“…trying to distract myself from the everyday misery”

“…unstable, complicated, lonely, confusing, funny, seeking, curious, wanting”

“…aches, pills, relief, friends, phone calls and fast food!”

“…work, sleep, more work, weekend, drink sleep, work”

“…long years wasted trying to please other people.”

or would it be like…

“…I am a lucky, grateful, positive, healthy lady. “

“…saved by Grace through Faith in Christ Jesus.”

“…Saved only by the loving providence of God.”

“…curiousity pushing me to discover new things, always.”

“…an unfolding of a beautiful multicoloured inner tapestry”

My life can be described as:

A life with Hope and Faith in God!

Can you describe your life in 8 words?

Kamusta ka? (How are you?)

A long time friend from high school asked me once: “How are you?” A simple question. For some, just an expression but they don’t really want to know the real honest reply from the person who was asked. For others, it’s just to know if you have a juicy “chismiss” about a certain person whom you are acquainted with and whom the person inquiring is also acquainted to.

So I replied to my long time friend. “I know that you really want to know. I am actually fine. Believe it or not, I am happy. I have peace, I like my job, I have a very undertsanding and loving hubby.¬† I don’t really have to pretend to others that I am actually contented.”

My only regret is that I did not stay in contact with a lot of my old classmates in high school. It’s not by choice, it just happened like it did. Suddenly, after high school graduation, I just sort of drifted apart to a new beginning. Which is how it is supposed to be, but still, I miss them. My old friends, my best pals. Now, I am just happy that I found them again through online networking. Gosh, even those whom I was not on a regular eye contact level chats with me now.

Ganun nga talaga siguro ang buhay. (Maybe, that’s life.) You live, you conquer, you move on. Then later… much, much later you say, “hey, what happened there?”. Then you start over. You live, make friends, conquer and then move on… the circle of life rolls further. The cycle is never ending. What’s important is to keep your sanity and level mindedness in tact. Be happy with who are now. Keep the old friends and try to make new ones as well. Love and spread love to others.

Only then would the World be a much better place to live in.